Sometimes I just wished the world would go away, vanish and cease. There are just times were you are just so sick of the trolling, bullying, the bad treatment one gets if they say the wrong thing or something is taken out of context. You just get so tired of it you either, one grow your skin SO thick you no longer care about anything that’s said to you or two you just get so frustrated and stressed that you go ballistic. But the bad thing is with point one is you lose touch with those that are actually around but by that time you just don’t give a shit anymore and just rolls off your back. Then there is point two you become so introverted you don’t want to talk to anyone about and if you do start talking about it the pent up rage and anger and hate that you’ve been festering starts to rise and rear its ugly side and you lose what friends you had left.
They say games help out, sometimes that’s true other times it’s just a distraction to help you forget who/what was causing your pain and loss of self worth and esteem. It’s scars you mentally, it does and a lot of people are like Pfft so the fuck what? Get of the internet then and quit being such a twat about it and crying about on your blog. Well those are the type of people that you want to watch your front side rather than your back because they’re fake, right down to the “Hello” in the morning as you pass them in the hall at work, or you bump into one at the store and they tilt their head and say “Oi, good to see you” when in fact they’re saying “Fuuuuuck he/she saw me now I have to say hi or I’ll won’t hear the end of it for a week at work” For me it’s got to the point where I go to work do my job and I stay out people’s way and notice, same goes for the general public sometimes I just get my books find a place and keep to myself.
People say I have friends……..I do wonder sometimes, if once I hang up or I/we leave what they say behind my back. You can call paranoia all you want the fact remains, people talk about you, good bad or indifferent. Sometimes I just wished the world and all everything on it would just wash away, gone somewhere else where I wasn’t.
OH and an FYI
You are hereby banned from these forums due to outside trolling and that fact that you’re a belligerent twatwaffle. You can not and will not blame anyone but yourself for the asshattery and stunts you’ve pulled. There is no reprive either as you’ve been proven to be untrustworthy and overall dishonest. Have a great day.