My 1st Day at the new place……

Hello, looks like I have a new position at a call center closer to my house, easier on brain and less stress in my life. I had a really good day today, I feel like I can sleep and not worry about am I going to pass their test, am I going to get terminated for not passing, am I going to have a stroke before I am Fifty?

I took notes, I am studying the material I have been given I am also sitting next to techs/agents that have been there for a bit and are also going to be on the same project I will be on coming August 3rd. I also will be putting my time off request for the two family outings we have around this time of the year as well, since its 2 weeks off. I will also been getting paid for 2 weeks and 4 days so of the pay I would have during unemployment I think will have caught up a little bit better than I thought.

I am still squirrelling away cash however for the events so we will have at least some spending money. I am selling off what I can so I can have my wife get what she wants for a change as well too. I need a checkup I think, I’m getting small aches and pains here and there plus some numbness in my left foot as well and that has me concerned a bit. As soon as I can afford it I’ll schedule a appointment for a full work up on blood and such just to see where I am at health wise. I am 203 lbs and 48 currently but then again I could be skinny fat as they say. But from 260 to 203 in a span of 4 years isn’t a bad weight loss I think, I’ve been walking and making sure I get some exercise. I will have to wait to see what the results will be.

Life in general post

Hello, yea it’s me. My daughter has finally gone in to the hospital to get the recurring tumor that’s been coming back into her lower jaw removed. It looked a lot worse than it after surgery. They did take #19 & #20 teeth removed the bone and jaw tissue surrounding the tumor so that this time it’s gone completely and totally gone. The meal plan for the next 2 months is going to be liquid / puree for her, I’m thinking I might join her on it for support.

I just don’t like baby food personally, all kidding aside though broths juice Jell-O and shakes and such will be the meals for the next 60 days. This year’s softball team will have to be minus one player as we were told no athletics this year just lots of recovery time and therapy to keep from any scar tissue build up or nerve damage which is one the major concerns.

Have barely slept in the past two days I’m making sure her room is as clean as possible, will help with her homework and also girl scout cookie sales booth duty as well, with her mouth the way it is and having an L bracket holding her jaw in place with the bone graft it wouldn’t be good to have her there selling even though she wants to. We think the cold weather would really irritate the jaw.

On another note, had some knob attempt to hack one of my email accounts from all the way in Jasper Alabama. What a dickcheese, even a monogloid chimp knows how to report the attempted hack and make sure that the offender is then targeted to be observed for any future possible criminal activity. The perp’s ISP even emailed back thanking us for bringing it to their attention and that their cyber division will be looking into but cannot let us know what the end outcome will be, which is standard procedure having worked for a cable ISP company before I knew that. I just frown upon such stupid acts like that to begin with.

Had a few updates to go towards the machine, 8 gigs of ram, a new 2 tb hard drive and will be swapping out cases so the machine that my wife and I use will be transplanted back into Knight Saber Onyx and vice versa and I will be taking out one the HDDs in the machine and transplant that into the 1.8 Gig machine and install Kubuntu 13.10 on it just to test out the waters with it. I’ll also attempt to get at least 1 to 2 replacement fans as well since 2 of the others are starting to show wear by the sound of the bearings.

End of Jan recap

Hey so, yeah, it’s been an odd 1st month for 2014. I had a double root canal; I was appointed the social media representative for the Ghostbusters fan group E.R.T – Experimental Research Team. It’s a global fan group where fans of the Ghostbusters Franchise setup outside the circle of the traditional Ghostbusters gear like the Proton Packs, The PKE Meters, and the Ectospectrum Analysis as well as the Spector Detector and Proton gun, and ecto-googles.

There are also new entries now being made to Tobin’s Spirit guide since new species of ectoplasmatic variations have been discovered and documented. So, we’ve reopened the fan page social media wise on FaceBook, Google Plus and Twitter. So if you are a fan? Come check us out!

We also do lots of volunteer work in the Salt Lake and Utah County areas. Zombie Prom, making sure the zombies and humans alike are Hydrated, apply 1st aid if needed, we also help out the local Salt Lake City Food Bank to help those in need. Last year at The 1st Salt Lake City Comicon we raised over 900+ dollars for the Zombie Prom’s Charity Juvenile Diabetes Foundation, there is also the rubber duck derby, we take part in the county haunted houses at various locations during the Halloween Season.

Back to topic, I also did what I set out to do for my wife’s Birthday this year. During last year as fore mentioned I went to the 1st Salt Lake Comicon. I got to go because I am a member of E.R.T and I jump in and try to help where I can when I can during events that the group is invited to. My wife didn’t get a chance to go and also missed an opportunity to meet some of the actors from Doctor Who, Walking Dead, BattleStar Galatica and Star trek and Star Wars as well as Adam West and Bruce Ward THE Original Batman and Robin.

SO I told her this year she would get to go it with us one way or another and I came thru on that with winning one pass to The Salt Lake City Comic con sponsored “FanXperince” in April where there is going to be plenty of Walking Dead cast and a plethora of actors and actresses from various Movies/Series that we all love and admire. I won that on Google Plus by helping spreading public relations and letting people know that it is an event not to be missed!

Also checked out a few animes I’ve been meaning to get around to watching and reviewing as well. Onto this month’s review, this boy can fight Aliens DVD; it’s from the Sentai Networks and the ComixWave Films Studio. This is indeed a BL (Boy love) inspired anime about a young boy named Kakashi, Another young boy who is on the Global Defense Staff and Kakashi’s Commander Shiro and how Kakashi is saving the world from Aliens by fighting them by himself everyday it seems, but his motivation seems to be wavering and starts to question himself as to why he’s doing it and who is it he’s actually saving?

This DVD also has three other film “shorts” that are on the BL side of things but do indeed have an emotional affect on you. If you enjoy BL (Yaio not Hentai or Ecchi) Manga and Anime, this is one for you and I give it 8.5 out of 10 for emotional reaction, decent voice acting cast and creative animation technique they used for these anime shorts. This including the voice talents of such voice actors like Chris Patton who voiced Natsu in Robotica Robotics.

That’s the subbed ver. You’ll have to ask your Library if they have it.

Been hearing there are some out there talking smack about me behind my back, I know this will get back to you and I really don’t care for it either. I won’t drop names just be aware I do still come by from time to time to see what the goings on are about and I do see assumptions being made. Bottom line is you need to get over yourselves and cont. on doing something constructive rather than debate on whether or not I have “infiltrated” as a sock into your community, not only has it got old, it shows how paranoidal you actually are of me. Leave me name outta your mouths and conversations, rumors are like asses everybody got em don’t need to flaunt them, plain and simple.

I mentioned to one the admins/moderators that I might want to active my account and roam the board, not as anyone else but just the same old name I’ve used for more than ten years. Then after consideration and also finding out the other admin had purged the spambots and any other actual real people out of the members activation cue that it would be rather pointless and just lead to more shit flinging and me getting angry at the usual perpetrators and change my password and walk off again in a huff with me giving you the single finger salute on the way out and rant about again for a number of months then get over it and moving on, so I just relied saying I’d rather not and just assume to not care as much but enough to keep tabs every so often.

Anyways, with that out there and congrats again to my friend #Brentlengel for his radio show may it reign for years to come? Controversy is always a key knowledge and power.
That’s it for me clean up after the 48th Super Bowl party.

A Post to Myself from Me, Myself, and I.

Greetings to myself,

Well if you’re reading this it’s probably because you wrote it and set it for a timed posting. You have a lot of issues, you know that right? But you’re also a great person at the same time. You love your family, care about your children, your wife, people you interact with a fondness towards. You’re not bad, although people treat you that way.

You try to further your knowledge, reading, and hands on, lab work at home. You even try to do things you don’t know how to do (not the dangerous ones) at times. Look at some of the accomplishments you made within the last two years alone. You started learning how to compile podcast videos, editing them out with help from Bruce and Ken, but you are able to get the videos compiled and uploaded. Bruce and you are getting back to 3D modeling again.


This doesn’t make you nuts, but I do understand what you mean at times. 😉

You and your daughter are playing catch, improving her catching technique. Your eldest daughter is graduating here next week. Your wife and kids love you with everything they got. I know you want to see your parents again before anything bad happens, but what can you do? Seriously, with everything that is going on back there you have to come to terms that you have to wait till things settle down on that end of the states. Your Brother’s not going anywhere yet is he? No….. Your mom and dad are still in ok health right?  Ok then, will it hurt to wait a year or so more to visit them when the dust settles down?

You want to get the netbook repaired right? Well, you have stuff you can sell off to get the warranty renewed and then get that fixed. Defiance? Yea you love that game and the series is also equally as cool if not cooler. You’re talented even if you doubt yourself, believe in me, oh wait  I am you, so see start believing more in yourself and quite being such a doubting Thomas. You’re better than you think yourself to be at times, when those moments wash over you, come back here and read this entry, and know you are loved not by your family but you yourself as well.

Signed

Me, Myself and I.

End of this week wrap up.

So what was this week like? A bit much like the past few weeks, money money  money pouring like a river over the falls. One the cars needs some major rear axle work due to one the brake seals being worn and saturating the back driver’s brake pads (That’s going to be $ just due to the labor on disassembling the rear axle to do get the repair done.

There is also an oil leak somewhere on the front and the filter needs to be changed out, and the gas pedal sticks when you lean on it from time to time. I’d assume to sell it but the skeptic needs find out how much out of pocket it would take to get it repaired since it was supposed to go to our Eldest daughter for her 1st vehicle, and if it would cost the same as a used car or slightly less?  I might bite the bullet and get it repaired. Other choice is sell it back to them (My mother in law bought it from them a number of years back) and squirrel away the money towards a better vehicle.

Wife’s mother’s day present hasn’t shown up yet, there is less than 72 hours left and it still isn’t here. I’m hopeful though I won’t give up hope. I’m going to finish off a few things around the house for mother’s day as well and getting the office a bit more squared away than it is currently. Plus have to get two more rooms moved between now and the end of the month, and maybe repaint a bathroom or two. (Pending on paint left over.)

Podcast side, not much to say save that I did get 3 of 4 encoded and uploaded to the podcast’s YT channel. Compiled an mp3/Video from our interview with LB Bryant and Amanda Rush, from http://ani.me, after listening to the podcast Max did a cool job of it and I love getting the new info from LB and Amanda for the upcoming summer season. Google Hangout was a mess Thursday night it seems, it took us 4x tries and even then after the 4th when it said it was finally recording and we had 2 of the 3 members from Triple Slash Studios from The U of U Gaming Education Dept. and discussed their release afterwards THE DAMN THING DIDN’T RECORD ANY OF IT! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! Over an hour of their time and ours WASTED because Google Hangout had some type of glitch on the server back end. We’ll just attempt to rerecord this coming week,

Our Eldest Daughter is going under the knife as well. A Bunion has surfaced on her left foot and is 15 rather than the norm 7 as far as length goes on bunions so we’re going to readjust our family vacation this year since she’ll have to wear a boot for at least a two month period for recovery time.

My mother has found the internet and discovered eBay so she’s becoming quite fluent in the ways of the business end of that company with how she can stop an nifty item or two at an auction and know roughly how much of a turn around It can return profit wise. She’s also delved deeply into the genealogy field as well, tracking down our connections the Cromwell’s and Hinton’s of The British Isles, as well as scanning in some of the family photos this week too. (Thanks mom, I mean it.) That brought a few tears to my eyes because I thought I lost some of them and I couldn’t recall them without thinking and concentrating too much.

Also, to some of you out there that I have lost touch with due to one thing or another?  I’m sorry, and this by no means is a crutch to lean on at all. My add/adhd seemed to have got loose, I have been lashing out a few people I lost a friend in my anger and I want to say to her I’m sorry. I should have tried to have been more patient and even understanding, I however don’t like having things kept from me either.  But I should have also been wary of you felt about your situation at the time as well. To the others, yup I can be a truly bonfied asshole, but I wasn’t the only one at fault, but I do accept my role in what transpired in our interactions. Please know I’m sorry, and that I hope you’ll move on without thinking of me too badly or with much disdain.  It’s Friday, and I need to finish my workload, so that’s it for now. I might post up after we do the next Podcast recording. OH and to Brent Lengel, HAPPY BIRTHDAY again you 30 Year old Sod! Love ya (In that comrade manly way of ways) stay strong always!

Friendship, what it helps build, what it does for people…….

What is a friend? To me it is someone who will stay with you no matter what type of hell you’re going through, who will share in/with your happiness your successes, and being with you through tough times, shoulder to shoulder, back to back guarding your six. I have met a lot of people since I’ve started doing social media, but who do I consider friends and those of just good acquaintances?

There are a number of outlets you gain people and online friends, the whole Facebook gaming gene is one of those that bring people together, you relate at some level whether it is a need of supplies and powerups or outright standing up to the ones that would abuse in an online game. Sure there are quite a number of fighting games, but does that give people consent to being allowed to be bullied or “statpadded” upon for days or weeks on end? No, and that where you find the people you end up having something in common with at that level but enough of that for now.

There is also the re-connect as well, people you lost due to moving, or losing their information but using social media to be able to possibly re-connect and hang out again. I’ve done that and I’m sure a number of you out thee have done that as well. People I went to Middle and High School with, people I hung out with at the mall when I was what 19, 20? There are even friends I had at Job Corp I actually still have contact with, why? They considered me worth contacting and re-establishing that connection. Blogging is another way to make friends but at the same time it’s a form of expression of you’re feeling when you’re posting up what’s on your mind. You’re reaching out to people as people are reaching out to you whether you know it or not. We rely on each other thru friendship.

Bottom line is we all have crosses to bear, friends are there to help ease through the rough times and to help you keep your sanity. Even marriage is that bond between two people that can’t be broken unless one side has grown that much apart from you, but other than that they are there to be the ones to hold you when you cry, when you’re angry at the world, when you lose something/one.  When you don’t have a grasp of what’s going on from time to time, they lend that hand to grasp it with you and help guide you back to reality and help cope with whatever it is that’s bothering you. So as I’m writing this if you have a problem? If you need to talk, if you need someone to just be there to listen not reply back but just listen and acknowledge that you’ve been heard? Then please feel free to reach out………lord knows I’ve needed it more times than I’d like to admit.

My feelings – concured with how william feels.

My feelings.

I can relate, with as much crap I had to put up with roughly till 4 yrs ago I was angry at the the world and the stupid childish shite some poeple cause. Even after leaving, I was reminded of the shite storm that I had left. I’m still angry, will I let it go? problly not and it will problly be part of my demise when it comes, but that’s me and I want them to know that they did create this feeling of resentment, rage and chaos, and god help them if I ever meet one of them at some point and time. I have much resentment and animosity towards them as a whole. SO yea William, I’m in the same boat or at least one very much like the one you’re in at the time being, but I’ve been on this one for quite sometime.