Florida Graduation trip Summer 2017

What up peepers? I decided to blog after the trip back from Florida for a our girls Vacation. It was a great time, 2 days at Disneyworld. We got to see Pandora the Avatar Theme area, including the mecha Exo suits by the Eatery and Gift Shoppe. We checked out the animal preserve there as well.  I did get some great pictures of the animals despite having a shitty iPhone 5C and its shit connection.

 

It was super humid there as well. The humidity was great for the girls and completion but the heat combined was awful. Ronda and I did escape from the girls for a day and went to Nasa Space Center there at the same time Mike Pence decided to show up and give some little speech on how cool it was that we finally got SpaceX launched finally have 2 horrible tries before. We even got to sit in on a talk with Ken Cameron Three time Space shuttle pilot and a Photo Op as well.

 

We went to Universal got some nice photos and some Video Footage of Diagon alley. I was able to get some of my butterbeer addiction going as well. The girls got some new wands and we did go to Honeyduke’s and The 3 Broomsticks got some new items for the Hogwarts section of our book case in the office downstairs. Funny thing though, Disney and Universal both having Marvel licenses neither one had anything with Stark Industries on the gift items. No Window Decals, no backpacks, nothing. I was sorely disappointed. I did however get a patch from NASA, which will go on my at some point leather jacket that I would wear during fall and winter, along with some of my other fandom fictional Corporations.

 

The flight back as a bit bumpy and instead of arriving early as predicted we ended up being 15 minutes late due to some light malfunction. Part of our larger luggage got slightly damaged nothing too noticeable. We ended up crashing when we got home. I ended up going to work instead of staying home and sleeping and a good thing too as I didn’t know this but my paid time off had ran out. So I ended up that week working 82+ hours and sleeping that Saturday in a bit till nine am in the morning. Well business is back to normal; Ronda’s watering the lawns while we try to recover them back to a nice green shade rather than the dead hue of fried hay. I was checking craigslist and ran across an excellent find. A 42 inch Plasma screen Video Panel with s video and rca hook ups no HDMI though.  Figure that would go great with my oldest’s console rather than that busted up 50 inch Sony with a busted color wheel in it. I will find a way to get rid of that TV.

 

I also got a Nokia Lumina 512 to replace that shit iPhone of mine. It is a Windows 8 as well.  I decided to try that out for a bit before going back to Android. Now have to find a replacement monitor for myself something nice 32 inches or more would be ideal, anyways that is all for now till Aug.

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It’s Tuesday, I had my follow up appointment with the Doctor. I’m now officially a type II Diabetic and will be taking Metformin and another Med to take as well as a Meter to check my A1C and Glucose levels as well. I refuse to give in and I will beat this back to normal mark my words. I have started to ween myself off Mt. Dew for good, I have started off just with lemon infused water and have started to watch what I eat more and less food more tiny meals.

But I still feel depressed about this, doesn’t matter how much people say you’ll be better because of this, or good for you, because till I get this beat I am still 4x more prone to a heart attack or stroke now and that scares me to death. My dad has had a few of them already and had some severe blockage to the point that he can’t do any colonoscopies for fear he will bleed out with the meds they have him on.

My Wife’s been Diabetic for 14 yrs. 4 yrs. after the twins were born and sure with the food change the Doctor she had at the time had her on a strict regime and such and she lost weight with it but she as at the same sad, angry, just not her happy self and it wasn’t till she was able to find her happy place that she could be who she was and have the middle space and watch how she eats and what she drinks (Which can sometimes just ruin her.) Thing is I can’t see past myself right now, all I can think about is “am I ok? Am I going to be all right?” and all I can say to myself is I don’t know anymore. So even though I am setting these small goals I still feel helpless.

And I fear that if my mother in law finds out? Oh the shit will hit the fan and I don’t what I will do because the one I do not want is her getting involved in this at all or at any level. Because she goes on the tracks or diet plans and such and then attempts to get everyone else she knows that’s diabetic to join on in and well guess what? I just don’t want to deal with it, I have seen how she treats her own daughter and all I want to do is tell her to lay off and let everyone live the way they want and eat the way they want and let them make their own choices in life.
My colonoscopy is set for the 19th, 1st one ever. I’m scared of what they will find there as well, it would be just my luck to find out I have colon cancer, as things are the way there are right now. I’ve even thought it might be a blessing if I did have something that would just kill me right away of natural causes so my wife and the girls would have the money to pay off the house and I could just be cremated and flushed the kids would have the money to go to college get the schooling they deserve, and be able to take care of their mother after I’m gone.

I know I know, I’m not going to “kill” myself or anything like that, but sometimes I do wonder what life here would be after all was said and done. I know I have hurt people out there I never even met in real life and have wanted to and apologize for lashing out or just being and out right dick from time to time. I make no excuses for how I treated people, I was in dark places a number of times where I did want to just “go away” or “Vanish” or when at places I had been a part of where one or two people had said “Why are you even here? No one likes you, you’re annoying, you’d be better off if you’d just die and be done with it” and they got away with saying that type of tripe and the worse part was I started to believe them and I had to just leave those places behind me.

Only recently have I made contact with some of the people I used to hang around with online and after almost 8 yrs. of being away and slowly making my way into what I think could be being friends I’m told I have these health issues and if I don’t take care of them properly I might see a chance to see or have grandkids. Right now I feel I am in a dark space and no one really out there feels what I am feeling at the moment.

Stardate 95012.53

Ok, it’s the day after Memorial Day and what’s been going on since the last time I posted here? Well I am on the Vonage project doing business VOIP Support for small to corporate level businesses. Our Twins are graduating High School in less than 60+ hours, I feel old and I know I shouldn’t but our kids are out of the basics for Life Education. However College is their choice and they will be walking down that path exploring what careers they want to choose. Other events have happened as well, some I will not go into so don’t ask please.  Trying to clean up some of my younger adulthood items, RPG books, maybe 80% of my Comic Collection that I collected over the years.  Just need to scale down the stuff in the house.

That being said, also cleaning the house room by room getting ready of that which is not needed of hold much sentimental value.  I am building however another machine to assist with Media for the house. We’re getting rid of the cable TV and Land based phone system and going straight internet to help save on money as well as personal time. Allows us time to work on the lawn and the house maybe we’ll have enough to start on a new slab in the back yard as far as a patio/add on to the house is concerned and we can also work on the back fence add more privacy to the yard as well.  Fix the front yard up with some cool flora that one of the twins brought home and some we bought at the high school greenhouse 10$ a flat is nothing to sneeze at that’s for sure.

ther news is I did finally see koe no katachi and I have to say that I thank my wife that I had a box a tissue available because the feels of it all were really there. This movie is indeed emotionally invoking, the walk thru of a walk thru on the daily events of the characters bring up similar situations I myself had encounters in my early teens years and could relate with the characters and story arc. I know I haven’t posted much here as of late and I apologize for that, real life has taken some steps into my time regarding blogging and the ilk. I have been able to tweet from here and there post up on facebook and such but drawn out articles and such have been long and in between.  Hopefully within the next coming month, The Cybernauts PodCast will be back up with https://twitter.com/AndrewDuvall & https://twitter.com/jessiepridemore on the Podcast discussing #Politics, #Comedy and #Cosplay !

Almost a week after Election night and still…..

OK, Here’s the deal Trump might not be as bad as president. If you sit down and read his plans and not just the audios, they are not the worse thing that could be done at this point, the damage is already done. He may be impeached within 3yrs and that would leaves us with Michael Pence. If you are gay, a woman, or something other than a Christians, a young minority or anyway not a white upper class male? You are maybe truly screwed and for that I am truly sorry.

Here is the thing that has me really saying fuck the world. Everyone bitching about all the protesters rioting. Making stupid comments about “you didn’t see Republicans destroying public and private property when “Obama won” oh yes we did, The Republican party said they would obstruct the government at every chance they could to insure Obama and the Democratic party couldn’t move forward. The few things that did get pushed through were done because Obama tried to let them still make changes to everything he attempted to do, that’s because that is how democracy works! The Republicans have inadvertently slowed the recovery of this nation after Bush not Obama.

They destroyed the possibility for a better life in protest. Lets not go into the rise in hate crimes department due to Trump winning. Now if you are disgusted with all these protesters because they are throwing a fit because they didn’t get their way, no they are protesting because twice the past decade and a half their vote had been ignored. 200,000 plus votes thrown out in order for them to lose, this has happened 3x before the end of the last century.

It happened twice just this election, if you voted just for the Democratic candidates. Remember the last time a bunch of people on this continent didn’t have their voice heard in the ruling government? That was called what was of yea The Boston Tea party. This however has nothing to do with Trump or the Republicans or any of that.

It has to do with basic human rights. If you think your daughter has the right not to be raped or be groped by any stranger who fills like it. If someone had threatened to tear your family, your friends apart, invalidate your family altogether in the eyes of the country’s law. Take your parents away, deport you or exile you to a country you’ve never been to, or your sons and daughters fear for their life if they had to walk the streets. Your daughters could be harassed, your sons beaten and killed because of their religion or god knows their sexual preferences. A police state that is above the law, they are supposed to protect and serve. That was lost because you voted to condone these possible actions. Not because Trump is president, let’s be clear on that.

Three years have gone by…

August 8, 2013 ·
Thursday, August 8th, 2013 – Three Years ago

Life can really throw you a curve ball and nail you in the nut sack hard. It is our 20th wedding anniversary yesterday day and it started out ok, same scene, as usual worked my cases, did my callbacks, sent email, got a call from a friend that usually doesn’t call. I asked what was going, and he said there was no other way to say it but that one of our friends had died earlier that morning.

I am in complete shock, I don’t know how long I stood in the conference room; my friend had given me two numbers to call to assist with the horrendous news. I called Mark first and he was beside himself, he asked what was the cause of the death, I told him what our friend told me and he was shocked as much as I was, and all of sudden I burst out crying uncontrollable crying because it hit me like someone had taken a metal baseball bat to my kidneys and hit them out of the park on a homerun.

I let him go composed myself and call our second friend Blair who took it almost has hard as I did I explained as much as I could and suggested he keep in touch and to contact our friend’s family so we could be updated to when the services would be. I then contacted Wade our third friend, let him know what was going on same suggestion I gave Blair and let him go. I sat there in tears for what seemed like hours and in fact in was two hours and a box a Kleenex. I drove home numb, it was my 19th wedding anniversary and I was numb. My wife knew a friend of mine had passed away I don’t think however she realized the amount of time the friendship was or how we were connected.

Best way to describe us back then? You remember the Hobbit, The Fellow ship of the ring? Yea we were like that, Chris, Desiree, Me, John Mark, Robert, Wade. That’s what it was like for us, even though we all recently reconnected (within the last 4 to 5 yrs.) through MySpace and Facebook, we still have that connection like it was yesterday at Round table Pizza back in Santee, we had our table, books, paper, pens and pencils, pizza, pitchers of soda, rolling 20 Sided die praying for a Natural 18/20 and then one of us is gone and that space just cannot be filled no matter how hard you try, it just cannot be filled. I’m still dazed and numb, people are talking to me or at least I think they talked to me. I couldn’t pay much attention.
Chris Dawson was a guy who would ask “What’s eating you, you look like someone stole your J-box Chili fries.” Would sit down and just start talking with you and by the end of the lunch break you feel better, you made a new friend that was able to listen to you and tell you to pull your head out of your butt and move forward and try to forget the problem at hand for the time being till we can get resolution for it.

He’s one of those people that would get up get in a car and drive to pick you up at a bar even though they had no license and only barley knew how to drive. He had a great if slight a skewed sense of humor, he’d make you laugh, and he had that type of personality. He also didn’t take crap from anyone either. If you pissed him off? You’d know it he’d tell you to your face and if you were in the wrong better apologize. But he was decent human being, a good man, I’m sorry he didn’t get married and had children, I had hoped for that to have happened for him. He is truly missed and his passing has saddened me and our fellowship. Someone asked me today while walking down the hall, “Why do you look so sad? Isn’t a great day?” I retorted back with, “Can you bring my friend back to life?” he said no, and I replied then that is why it’s not a great day…..

Rest my friend,
Know that even though you have been taken away from us,
You do deserve peace.

Christopher Dawson
R.I.P
Son
Brother
Friend
8-7-2013

hello …..

Hello to those that follow this WP blog. It’s been pretty much a shitty moment it time recently. I had to finally pay that 175.00 of 210.00 for the accident I was involved in back in Feb. We purchased our tickets for Anime Banzai for October, even though money is/was tight, it is one the few times in the year we get to de-stress and get away from the everyday grind and routine.

My wife’s niece April passed away at age 22, no one should ever have to go through outliving their child(ren). Her mother is heartbroken as it is after losing her mother last year around this exact time as well. The service was nice, the funeral was as expected, and we did get to see relatives we had not seen in just under a year. This brings a lot in perspective as you get older.

A Buddy & Co-worker brought back the pc tower I lent him for 3d Printing options. It didn’t work well for him in Vista 64 Bit. I am really considering transferring my HDD with windows 10 on it and throwing my 2 gig PCIE Video card and work from that PC and then retire the old family dell and put my old tower in its place.

I got a raise at work as well, felt pretty cool about that. Hopefully I will get back to working weekdays instead of through the weekend. People are cheering that trump is leading in the presidential race and that it will be between Clinton and Sanders on who will be his arch-nemesis during the elections. I’m sorry I want neither Clinton nor trump in office. I do not think they are good for America. Anyways, that’s what’s going on at this point and time.

so yea……

Yea hey,

It’s me again, been busy working Overtime and more Overtime. We finally got around to replacing one the doors on the house which was indeed need of replacing not repairing “replacing”. Sunday was a fine example of frustration, I am doing the dishes and the water just stops yet you can still hear it, I look under the sink and that $!#(%^@ Sprayer hose has popped off the faucet and I end up with a 20 minute clean up session under the sink in the kitchen. I did call the faucet company and told them that the faucet (in my opinion) has a defect since it is the 2 time replacing the sprayer attachment for this sink.

On top of that, I have been working from 4/4/16 to current and I will not be off till Thursday and that means I am working Saturday so that also means I have to move the cosplay meeting down to later in the day or on a week that I actually CAN A FREAKING WEEKEND OFF AGAIN ! (Huffing angrily ) but I get we need coverage, I just wished that some of the people we hired weren’t fucking crazy or bails because oh gee the job I wanted and paid more came through. I just want my weekends back that’s all, is that so much to ask for? I guess so, for now this is me and this me disgruntled.