I will have to agree with William. I love my parents, and how strong they were dealing with me as a child with ADHD and not knowing about it till years later. I was a terror child the only thing missing were the clove goat legs and horns. I made a mess of things, and thinking back I always end up breaking down emotionally and hating myself for things I did when I was younger.

My mother and father had to deal with me not so much with my brother as he was well considered the normal one out of the pair us with a five year span that separated us. I was supposed to be the role model and I ended up being a failure at that as well. I look back and I realize, yes I’m lucky in the aspect that I did end up getting married to someone who loves me regardless of my faults and the broken pieces of myself that came with me. Someone who bore not just one bundle of happiness into our lives, but 3 (The twins) and that helped me get my head out of my rectal cavity and face reality to try to really come to grips with my monster ADHD and try to cope and collar the beast, stay with a stable job, keep a house over our heads, try to improve myself and become a better person in my family’s eyes.

Yet, there will always be arguments that will just plow through the walls I’ve built over the years, the good kind, confidence, self-value-esteem-worth, all shot to hell because of something I did or didn’t do and correct or didn’t do at all or completely screwed it up beyond saving and being told “hate you!” or something else similar and all I can do it just take it rather than argue because it will do is cause more chaos. So I just mentally crawl into a small ball and let the blows mentally thrash against the chinked and scorched armor I try to keep together with duct tape and chicken wire and refrain from lashing back out.

I want to be a better person, I want to further myself along the road of achievement, but as it stands and it has almost always been I travel down the road and end up hitting a landmine or grenade down my career road and I end up on a curbside or worse a ditch and I struggle to get back up after repairing what I can. But how far does that take me? At the moment I’m not even sure where I am at on the road as it currently.

This little excerpt is from a thread on a place that has me perplexed at its existence, and how it survives feeding upon itself. Names will not be revealed due to possible harm it could cause them. I am only doing this as the person in question does seem to be completely clueless when stating things he/she hasn’t even researched and looks like an ass because of the lack of research thereof.

I’m amused that Leon is reaching out to anyone.

[It’s wasn’t a reach out or an Olive Branch, Brent and I have never been at odds with each other “ever” so striking up a conversation on related topics was relatively welcomed. He’s had quite the life in his young life so far, and it’s been quite interesting to hear some of his ventures and scribing’s as a playwright. His plays are quite an interesting read if you ever actually sit down and do a complete read through rather than gleaning just enough to possibly troll or attempt to in some entice him to lash out at your for your entertainment. His political views are a bit extreme, but then again those who love their country are quite adamant on speaking out on the politic situation when they think it’s out of touch with reality in one sense or another. I respect his opinions, I may or may not agree with some of them, but I’m not going to be a dick about it and troll them on it either just for the sake of having a laugh at their expense.]

His posts on things like deviant art and his blog alternate between talking about his family and long rambling things about anime. I never see anyone comment thought. Especially after I decided to leave him be.

[Let’s get something straight here first shall we? Talking about family is no crime, maybe boring and dry in some areas, but hey that’s what I like blogging about from time to time. As far as my ramblings go, they’re just my opinions in reference to them. You should have included Manga, Video Gaming, and Technology as well as you seemed to have omitted those out as well in your statement.]

His podcast is amusing because he left the one he was formally with after he got butthurt and had a falling out with the guys who produced it with him.

[My podcast, I’ve never said it was “my” podcast. We share it actually, I and six other people as well. Some of which have quite a bit on their plates at the moment ergo the lack of their presence on the recent podcasts. As far as the current podcast is I didn’t have a falling out with Dustin, nor David, you’re assuming it was a falling out. They had scholastic issues of their own they had to deal with and take care of. They have just recently revived an older podcast they had even before The Kool Kids Klub podcast and The Cybernauts.
Anime of Yester-Years is what it’s called, the cast consists of Dustin, Dave, and on occasions, our own Vee-Monjosh, because he is friends with them as well. We didn’t separate our ways on bad terms which seems to be what you’re implying. But then again, it does boil down to you not researching and getting all the facts straight before you post in a slightly slanderous format. Where it comes down to comments being left? Rarely do I get comments from the actual readers on “my” blog. The Cybernauts get a few on occasion, but also that particular blog also gets spam-based comments from script kiddie ran bots. ]