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Two years, its already been two years.

Posted on by Madarame-Harunobu

It is already 2 years since my last posting? Well where to start off I been working at Morgan Stanley for roughly 2 years and then had a opportunity to go work at MDF which was the big mistake because 6 months later ”Got to let you go” no real reason just me and 2 others gone.  That was June of last year. What have I been doing since? Nothing save looking for a job 350,000 supposed NEW jobs out there and not one of these &^#$ will hire me! SO frustrated I can do VoIP, Active directory and cyber security and Internet Service Support for Crist sakes!

 

I am still streaming under the tag of Tehloen on twitch have less than 90 followers and been on for 2 yrs. but I’ll make it 101 followers someday and be able to use emotes …..One day.  I did get involved on Blue-sky; they just now opened to the public. I was to get a few fellow Waste landers to come over from twitter on over I use both but trying to leave twitter behind in the dust. I am back to using Stream labs Desktop *sigh* it would be nice if X-split was stable enough to stay connected and quite crashing during the middle of a stream. Then again there are times where Comcast fucks up and lags me to where I have to start the stream over or just not stream period, ergo my lack of content as of last, oh and I was banned on twitch channels of @GamingGranny56 and @BendyJenga both on twitter, reason unknown for Granny as far as Bendy goes well, I was a bit disrespectful when walking into the channel and not reading the room for a moment (ADHD moment) and was booted off. I made apologies but that didn’t cut it (Right mim!) I told I would self-exile from her twitch and twitter and not be bothered by me again.  Trying to keep my own words and adhere to what I said.

Mentally how am I? Probably the same as anyone who has lost the parent (Yea still grieving) they could talk with and feel normal when talking or discussing things of personal / private in nature. I’m angry I have a number of medical conditions I refuse to talk about (don’t ask please.) I frustrated that these %##@ places that say “Oh Hey you’re perfect for this position” and apply and then either get ghosted or be told sorry you don’t have the skills. FUCK THAT SHIT! I have skills, some more than others, and I am willing to work overtime and such. I have been awarded a number of times from different employers for my technical AND my client support skills.  What the fuck does it take to get a god damn job that is technically based and remote!?!  I am betting it’s because I’m 57 there is age discrimination but try proving that to the BBB!  I need to be able to work remotely to keep a tab on matter I am not at liberty to discuss, but ideally making 40K and working remotely to take care things after work hours and being able to have some control is needed currently until others have their licenses and can drive themselves without problems.

 

I have been talking @C27Penn, @Mawtater, @ThiccMethod to name a few from the SlothCrew and #FalloutForHope team for St. Judes charity has kept me from going off the rails at times where I just want to destroy everything  say fuck it and just drive and keep driving and I don’t what afterwards.  Yea I know we’re not supposed to think like that, we’re 57 we’re supposed to be mature enough and  rational enough to not have those thoughts, but they happen and if I am being honest no real amount of meds will change it now either. I don’t make excuses for my behavior, I can be an ass sometimes, but I try to keep that reeled in, been bully and talked down to too many times to not realize when I become one and have to self-contain that which wishes to “Rip and Tear” till all is gone from the despair.  That’s all for now ranting is over. Doubt anyone will see this.

Almost a week after Election night and still…..

Posted on by Madarame-Harunobu

OK, Here’s the deal Trump might not be as bad as president. If you sit down and read his plans and not just the audios, they are not the worse thing that could be done at this point, the damage is already done. He may be impeached within 3yrs and that would leaves us with Michael Pence. If you are gay, a woman, or something other than a Christians, a young minority or anyway not a white upper class male? You are maybe truly screwed and for that I am truly sorry.

Here is the thing that has me really saying fuck the world. Everyone bitching about all the protesters rioting. Making stupid comments about “you didn’t see Republicans destroying public and private property when “Obama won” oh yes we did, The Republican party said they would obstruct the government at every chance they could to insure Obama and the Democratic party couldn’t move forward. The few things that did get pushed through were done because Obama tried to let them still make changes to everything he attempted to do, that’s because that is how democracy works! The Republicans have inadvertently slowed the recovery of this nation after Bush not Obama.

They destroyed the possibility for a better life in protest. Lets not go into the rise in hate crimes department due to Trump winning. Now if you are disgusted with all these protesters because they are throwing a fit because they didn’t get their way, no they are protesting because twice the past decade and a half their vote had been ignored. 200,000 plus votes thrown out in order for them to lose, this has happened 3x before the end of the last century.

It happened twice just this election, if you voted just for the Democratic candidates. Remember the last time a bunch of people on this continent didn’t have their voice heard in the ruling government? That was called what was of yea The Boston Tea party. This however has nothing to do with Trump or the Republicans or any of that.

It has to do with basic human rights. If you think your daughter has the right not to be raped or be groped by any stranger who fills like it. If someone had threatened to tear your family, your friends apart, invalidate your family altogether in the eyes of the country’s law. Take your parents away, deport you or exile you to a country you’ve never been to, or your sons and daughters fear for their life if they had to walk the streets. Your daughters could be harassed, your sons beaten and killed because of their religion or god knows their sexual preferences. A police state that is above the law, they are supposed to protect and serve. That was lost because you voted to condone these possible actions. Not because Trump is president, let’s be clear on that.

A Moment of Truth from the past.

Posted on by Madarame-Harunobu

OK, ignore that #CharlieChaplin  who seems to be portraying Adolf Hitler,  but is rather playing a jewish barber. Please #Listen to what is being saying #Politically . I for one have now at this point and time understand more to what he is saying, and I can say that I am taken back because what he is saying and I can see how the world is currently. It invokes a depression in one when thinking upon the truth of what is being said in the video and realizing just what is going on currently in world affairs today.

In my opinion 35 years ago the country and the world was a better place to live in. Now we just have puppets in office doing what the corporations want rather that what is good for the country and global good, leading the global lemmings in their dream like states buying engaging and consuming, rinse lather repeat, not actually seeing the corruption that is happening out there.

 

The deals being made behind closed doors, the terrorists, the destruction, the greed that has corrupted the hearts and souls of today’s society singular not plural because at one point we were “one” society working to benefit humankind not tear it down, not ruin that which was given to us to make choices towards a better future.

 

All I have seen over the past decades is a world that has going to hell in a hand basket and feel like there is not much I can do about it, but if this  helps open up the eyes of  few, wake them up to ways or paths on how to correct the path we are going down then in some small way I feel like I have helped push ourselves from the bring of self extinction.

 

Because realistically the human race not just countries, the planet as a whole is on a road to extinction. Take it leave it, I am posting it up because this is something I’ve known for a bit but finally decided to share my opinion on it. #GlobalWakeUp   #BecomeAStrongerPlanet I doubt many will understand nor even share or reply to this, but one can hope that the population sees this as one truth to current state of the world as it is now.

Update from the past 2 months

Posted on by Madarame-Harunobu

Ok, so what has been going on since June? I was laid off on June 5th and applied for unemployment and was denied not because I was laid off on the contrary. I was denied because someone said I had applied for a posting they placed up on craigslist and then refused the offered. I placed in a dispute on and still no word back on it.  Meh, I got a job with teleperformance that started on the 6th of July worked it till Friday and placed in my notice. Why? Because of the stress I was under I was falling asleep like 10 pm (But in bed by 9 usually) and waking up at 3:00 / 3:30 am and then just lying there awake till 5 so I put my clothes on and left the house to be there at 6 am till 2:30 pm for 12.00 a hour.

Reason I mainly left was also an offer from a Tech Support Center near my house and one of my old jobs.  Starting is 14.00 an hour with a 500.00 sign on bonus 250.00 1st paycheck then the other on the 2nd paycheck, and I get PTO starting day one and benefits after 60 days. Better pay better opportunity better chance for advancement and it is dealing with business VOIP, which is what I dealt with to a good degree when I was working with Comcast. I start Thursday for 2 weeks of training and then to production! I feel good about this, and being back in tech support, plus this company has a number of internal employment positions I want to try for and move up by the end of the year. Anyways, that’s what’s been going on for the past 2 months.

Our 21st Wedding anniversary is coming up and I am not sure what to do!  I don’t want to do just a movie and dinner…… I’d like to take her out to Park City have a nice stroll maybe go to the top of the mountain and look over the whole of the Salt lake Valley Floor. I know what I do want to do, I want to be able to let her have the photo op and autograph of her choice during #SaltLakeComicon aka #SLCC15, we’re to have #ChrisEvans, #AlexKingston, #JohnBarrowman (Again and we love him for it.) there are whispers that #DavidTenant might show up as well! That would be most excellent indeed that we could add him to our #DoctorWho Photo Group collection.  Then in October there will be #AnimeBanzai not sure on the guest listing as of yet as it seems they have last year’s guest still listed, but I am betting there will be some changes here in the next month or so.  Well I got some work to do around the house and it won’t clean itself so I will leave it at that for now and hope some of you leave a comment or two on what you’ve been up to lately.