Even after *Ponders* 3 years now? Still Mad at her…….

My Truth anyway......What don't look at me that way, you know it true.

My Truth anyway……What????? don’t look at me that way, you know it true.

Although I am still mad at her, I would like to point out “she” was not the negative one at all. Quite the contrary she let others slightly dictate and troll her online life experince as I observed it through my interactions with her.
I would hope she would realize this and make a definite change by letting go of said community. But that’s not happening anytime fast. Which is sad, because I think she’d take up her pen and sketchbook up again and get back to her art while being a mother and being a semi-successful career woman as well. I can’t talk to her because all it would now is go in one ear and out there and who knows, she might even laugh at what I’m typing up this very minute. Oh that’s right those people consider it lurking instead of just looking at the board for a few seconds and then moving on, (Rolling eyes in a sarcastic manner.)

I don’t know, I guess I never will either? I know a flew off the handle a bit when I had enough of the crap she was receiving as well as the bad mouth trolling over me since I no longer was there. I wanted to blow off steam and get my frustrations out and talk with her about and I was ignored for whatever reason, I was ignored. I found out a little bit later she had stood up for me in the thread. I know I screwed the friendship up but regardless, it doesn’t change how I feel about the situation regarding her and me, and the way she was/is treated there. It’s like she likes the negative output, and semi trolling and the harassment.

I told her and others a few years ago it would be best to leave the place as I did and to not look back unless someone mentions otherwise. Personally I feel better for leaving the place, the trolling and the hate, yes I will say hate it was felt and expressed, so I left before anything else came of it. Now looking back and talking with a few others that left for similar reasons like mine I wasn’t the only one that felt that’s how the others treated them. OH and don’t you dare say grow some thicker skin? Fuck that noise if I grew anymore thicker skin I’d be considered a internet Mastodon. No, why can’t they change, why can’t they be a bit more polite or think skinned as it were to quote one of their own. That would be a bit harder for them because that would take too much of an effort.

You know what burns my asscheeks? is she said and I quote “My hope is that my daughter is better at life than I am. Maybe she will learn something positive from her mother’s negative example.” What type of shit is that? She’s had some issues in the past, but who doesn’t? I wish I could say to her she’s doing a great job with what she has to work with, and even more so now that she has someone else she has to look out for now as well. I’ll wish her luck with the whole single mom thing and I hope the dick that got got her that way helps pay the child support that bundle of life deserves, and takes some small amount of responsibility for his actions, the ass.

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GAME VIEW City of Steam

Greetings Ladies & Gamers alike!

 

Madarame here to do a small report on a new game that hit the scene last month and seem to be looking for recruits for testing. I’m talking about City of Steam By Mechanist Studios based out of Fuijin China, www.mechanist.co .This is a steampunk world mixed in with splash of D & D old school races, yes that means elves, orcs, trolls and other mythical creatures while being steam mechs and weapons all driven by the Unity Engine.

This mmo has a very turn of century feel to it and I am not one to be shy about it, I am hoping to get involved in the alpha myself so I can experience the gameplay as well. I admire the work that was placed in this from what I can see via the media clips and the artwork that was done.

 

This reminds of what London might be like if D&D and Steamology had been a thing of reailty. 😉

The Classes the player takes on are the usual type of hero archetypes, each with a unique set of abilities. Working as a party will more or less get you through the most part of the quests but eventually you will need to part ways as to some of the quests that will befall you. But the riches and weapons you gain will be most helpful on future tasks that seem to come by too soon 😉 I am sure that if given the opportunity to get into this alpha, that it will prove to be quite enjoyable and entertaining. Here’s to hoping !

UDK Reinstall, Tempus gets a new Padawan, Esc online.

All right, with the new rig in place and Win 7 reinstalled? Time ot get UDK Feb reinstalled. Got that taken care as well. Got on yahoo this morning and I saw a name I knew from UDK on my webchat for yahoo. It was one the guys that wanted to join the team a few monthes back.

Well after talking with him and findoing out what his skillset was at? I thought it best to set him with Paulo. Paulo needed some extra hands on texturing and helping with modeling the buildings since we have to do it all by hand now it seems. The two seem to be hitting it off ok as well too. I’m slightly worried with regards to the vehicles however. I haven’t heard from chris in over a week since I sent him the backups to help him start work again after his own machine took a nose dive as well. I am hopeful to see some work from him as well soon. Paul is working on the Pilot Model for the Firebee, Hornet, Wasp vehicle set. Turning out pretty well too.

Next is Esc on moddb, I decided to check on that and see how it was coming along? found out some asshat decided he was going to be funny and try to troll the mod, because there weren’t any screenshots on that page. SO I took the liberty to upload some. Then I reported the little troll’s image to the staff for removal. I’m waiting to hear back from one the moddb staff on taking over the project with Spanky’s and DJPaul’s permission of course. UNLESS of course they decide to take my idea to heart and launch a UDK edition of Esc? Which personaly I’d pay 15$ for it on steam.